This is so very hard. I sit here at just after 3 am in the morning unable to sleep for worry. He is unravelling before my eyes. Two horrific days at school, and Monday was a holiday. I bumped into his teacher yesterday at the local shops, but knew it had been a bad one. Any day when his friend meets you at the gate in tears because she fears he will run away as he threatened is a bad one. The workload is horrific. Three major assignments this week, and the usual homework on top of that. This is Grade 6, for hell's sake... not high school. Others are suffering too, but they do not place the enormous amount of pressure to achieve on themselves he does. The perfectionist, always craving the A's, never accepting less.
His teacher told me a parent has complained about him, and the disruption he is causing. I can understand their concerns, but what the hell are we meant to do? He loves his school and is terrified he may be asked to leave, and yet he cannot seem to control this upsurge of emotion. I think it is time we asked about medication to help with the anxiety, for none of the tools he has are of any use.
I am being tough on him, hard on him, pushing him to use all he has learned over the years to help himself, but am I making it worse? Should now be the time to tread lightly, or will he use that to let go off the little grip he has left?
I do not know how to help my child. I think we are all going to break. God help us.
A , lost and bewildered in the wee hours.