I have to be one of those moms who noses around in her sons business. I try to do it discreetly so I don't totally piss him off. Now that school has started and he already starting to show some obsessive tendencies towards a couple of friends. I feel it's in his best interest for me to know what's going on. I periodically check in on his "facebook" page to make sure that he is staying appropriate. Sometimes, he comes out of his room suddenly angry and I know that something has happened with a friend online. If he won't talk to me, I trace his "facebook" steps to see what is going on.
reconnected with a friend "M" that he has know since kindergarten. She
was always very nice to him throughout elementary school. They parted ways
when he went to another middle school, but have met up again in the
same high school. She has a boyfriend and has made it clear that she
would love to be good "friends" with my son. He says he accepts that,
and has even gone to church with "M" and her boyfriend. They are
Christian kids who seem to be trying to be inclusive with my son,
despite some of his strange behaviors. He has started to talk about them a
lot. I know that he is jealous of their relationship. Since he has no
edit button, he also made that clear to both of them. Still, they
generously let them hang out with their crowd at school.
Last night as the evening was winding down, instinctively I decided to
take a peek at what he was doing on facebook. I found a chat log going. Some dude was telling "K" to back off from "M" and her
boyfriend's relationship. "K" responded by ripping this guy a new one with every expletive he could think of. The guys language was teasing and taunting, with lot's of
"ha-ha's", but no cursing. Other friends chimed in on the
conversation, but no one was out and out rude. Still K-was cursing up a
storm! He must have been so proud of his curse word vocabulary.
Personally, I think cursing to express yourself shows a real lack of
imagination and thought. In my opinion it makes you look dumb! Especially when others around you aren't talking like that.
I've read in Ross Green, Ph.D.'s book "The Explosive Child" which basically says, for
children with Aspergers, cursing is like barking when you step on a dogs tale. They're hurt or upset and they feel there is no other way
to let you know just how much. It's like an exclamation point for them.
And of course since "K" lacks perspective, he doesn't think about how
offensive it is to others who don't use that kind of language. Believe
it or not, none of the kids on the chat responded or used one iota of
It was really getting out of hand so I had to step into his room and as gently as possible said to him,
"Son -I think you should really rethink the kind of language you're
using on facebook. I noticed that even though some of the boys are
being rude, not one of them is using that kind of language. Not one.
Don't you think it makes you look a little weird that you're the ONLY ONE talking that way?"
"I don't care!"
"I think you should apologize because not
only that boy is reading this but there are girls, and others who want
to be your friends who are reading it, and may be offended by it."
"They don't care! I'm not apologizing to that jerk!"
I understand how you feel, you may be making yourself bad."
He didn't agree to apologize. I left the room. Soon after he posted:
"I'm deleting my facebook account. I can't be friends with anyone. This is not a joke. I'm not coming back. And I'm never coming back to school either. I'm just going to juvenille hall. This will be the last time you see me."
That was the sympathy card. It worked...there were 14 replies -all of them positive. Here are just a few:
"Dude what's wrong? Don't talk be talking about yourself like that! If you ever need someone to talk to...text me anytime before 10:30. Then I have to turn my phone off."
"I'm here for you buddy!" (from a female...a cheerleader no less).
"Dude...don't worry about a girlfriend. If you really want one, just be friends with them. Almost every relationship starts by being friends. And if you EVER need someone to talk to I've got your
back! Just get your schoolwork done, and let everything fall into place.
God has a plan for evryone! Let his light shine through you."
"Don't delete it!"
"I'm here for ya!" (from another cheerleader!)
I was so excited, I couldn't help myself...I chimed in, "Wow! You are so blessed to have friends with such good advice!" Three people "liked" my comment.
Reading these posts brought tears to my eyes. I could just see God all over that page and in the hearts of those young people. I knew at that moment that God has not forgotten us. He is answering my prayers.
When I go in to kiss him goodnight I say, "Dude! do you know how blessed you are?! You have some real friends out there who really care about you. Can you try to focus on them? I mean, you've got cheerleaders who are in your corner! That puts you in a great place! Can you try to focus on that?"
And that was the prayer I prayed over him as he drifted off to sleep.
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